Reality
This past weekend I was privileged to compete at the State Career Development Conference (SCDC) for DECA club. I spent 3 days in Bellevue competing in the Business Services Marketing category. I didn't place or anything like that, but it was a lot of fun (well aside from the fact that I was super sick).
With the Revelstoke trip and the SCDC trip, my sense of reality has really been switched around. I keep looking at the way I saw things before Canada, and the way I see them now is so different. It's really creepy. I had this sense that Quincy was my life support and I never wanted to leave. I always thought no matter where I went, I'd always love this place. Now though, I feel like getting away as soon as possible. I see now that there is so much more out in the world and I want to be a part of it. Before SCSD, I said I'd never live in a city. Well, I am having to eat my words because I think I might actually like it. I am ready to graduate right now to just get on with the next part of my life. I don't mean to say Quincy's not great. It is still my home and every time I look at the Columbia Basin, I feel safe and secure.
I think this is God's way of showing me that I'm supposed to go on my exchange. I think He has had this planned for me for a while and everything I've done has been leading up to this. It is the best feeling to know that He is in TOTAL control over this chaos that is my life. There is a weird feeling that says this is the reality God has in mind for me. That helps because there is so much chaos with graduation, school, dance, drama, and everything in my life right now. I watch my classmates scramble to finish scholarships for college and getting college tuition paid, and I think that while they are in college next year, I will be in Turkey. I'm very excited, but I am also nervous. I have no idea what my reality will be over in a new country. My sense of reality has already changed so much in two months; how much will it change in a year?
Very confused, but very excited!
Monica
